Life Passing By...

Recently I have been feeling a lot of stress, and not my typical school stress, specifically around the idea of the past and the future. What are you talking about Hayden? I mean I kind of feeling like my life is very quickly passing me by. I haven't really felt in control recently, it's like I am a robot going through the motions of studying and hanging out with friends. It doesn't feel meaningful...which sounds much more horrible than it is. I am having a wonderful junior year and I love my life but I am a junior and that is hitting me hard. It seems like I was a freshman just last week, my sophomore year is a blur. I get really sad when I think about how I have a little over a month left of my junior year and then I'm a senior...I'm getting stress-y just thinking about that. When I think about being a senior I start to breathe faster and panic. I have loved every single second of college and leaving the Forty Acres seems awful. It feels like I haven't accomplished anything {even though I know I have}.  I think the prospect of having to start applying for jobs, being part of the senior countdown at my school and seeing so many of my friends graduate has me panicing. But I'm not really sure what to do about it.  The reason why I am writing this is to just let you know, if you're out there, that you aren't alone in feeling freaked out by graduation and your upcoming life. I've decided to work on my panic-y feelings and just try to absorb everything left of my junior year. If any of y'all have gone through this please let me know what you did to take everything in before it was over.  I am really excited to graduate and start my life, but goodness I really love college. It seems so bittersweet and something that I haven't experienced. I was so ready to be done with high school and move somewhere new. The worst part was leaving my parents/home but in college I am going to miss so much.  Talk over, but thank you for reading! I hope you have a wonderful day & check back tomorrow for the articles I'm reading this week-xoxo darling, Hayden.